29 January 2008

Kyongju - Ammar & Wak Ghani

Kyongju - Matin & Emy

There is something about this whole thing that isn't right. It's not you, or me, or even them. It's the everything around us.




28 January 2008

Everland - South Korea


Finally…. it’s Sunday and i’m home. Thank goodness. I really don’t feel like re-living my budgetary trauma this year. Well, another 2 weeks to go and whalllaaaa. Free as a bird. Phewitt.. Can’t wait, simply can’t wait.

So, nothing much has been scribbled on my blog. And nothing much has got scribbled in my life either. I guess work has really kept me busy to the extent life=work during this past 1 month. Sad? Well, to be honest, i don’t feel sad. Pathetic? Maybe but then again, i’m broke so i guess i haven’t missed much then.

i haven’t had much to think of lately except for work related matter. And i personally find that sad. But i get to sleep! As in proper sleep and rest. My mom was very happy to hear that, Although she gave me a half hour lecture on how bad caffeine is. Never in a million years would i expect me be addicted to coffee. But then again, at the rate of 5 glasses of coffee daily, not really a surprise is it?

Blurrhh.. I can’t seem to think proper now. Later..


Mungkin untuk mengingatkan sesetengah kita bahawa kita ini masih biasa, dari setiap zarah sama yang menjadikan kita sangat manusia; yang harus seringkali diperingatkan dan yang acapkali mudah sekali terlupa.

26 January 2008

How much of human life is lost in waiting


Over the years I’ve learned that a 12:30 meeting, in fact, means 12:40. And 12:40 means 12:50. And so on.

Time and again, otherwise "smart and responsible" people say one thing and do another. Why is this?

Their answer is surprisingly simple: I hate waiting, but don’t hate you waiting.

They said you don’t know when I’ll show up, and waiting is costly. If you’re early you’ll have to wait. If you’re late you won’t. So you come late. And I do the same thing.

Seems obvious enough. But when I make this argument to non-economists they’re unpersuaded, preferring an explanation for lateness based on laziness and stupidity rather than as the equilibrium of a social coordination game.

True you are.There's only so much you can learn in one place. The more that you wait, the more time that you waste

I hate waiting

Seoul ----> Jeju Island
Jeju Airport

Kadangkala apa yang terucap dari bibir ini lain sekali dari apa yang terfikir dalam minda. Mungkin terlalu pantas fikiran itu dilancar hingga rahang dan lidah yang bergerak untuk menterjemah dan mempersembah maksudnya tidak tertangkap perkataan yang sepatutnya.

Tapi kadangkala ekspresi dan raut wajah itu, walaupun tidak terkeluar sebarang suara, jeritannya cukup kuat untuk difahami makna, kerana tersentuh jiwa dan terperasan minda. Maksud yang menjelma sebegini, lebih kuat dan kuasanya maha.

23 January 2008

Free Hug


Perlukan kelainan. Untuk memberi ruang dan peluang kepada diri sendiri, agar benar-benar akui apa yang diperkatakan selama ini. Untuk menghargai perbezaan dan memahami diversifikasi. Makhluk yang pelbagai, bentuk, sifat dan perangai.

Dia yang boleh jadi sangat istimewa.

Aku yang perlu lupa dan mulai kesemuanya semula agar dapat menapak rapi
di susunan tiga-ratus-enam-puluh-harimu

22 January 2008

Well I'm done with this novel. The plot was beyond words. I bet this movie gonna be another good start for Islamic-based film. The best quote definitely gonna be;

"Wahai orang yang lembut hatinya,
aku tiada siapa pun kecuali Allah dihatiku,
aku ingin menjadi yang halal bagimu
inginkan kau kucup keningnya...”

Download Novel Ayat-Ayat Cinta

Download Ost Ayat-Ayat Cinta


21 January 2008

Seoul National University - Athir, Jaha, Ayie, Matin(sengal)

I like these cold, gray winter days. Days like these let you savor a bad mood.


Chongeycheon - South Korea

Chongeycheon - South Korea

Dear friend,

I’ll bet you’ve had about enough of people telling you how strong you are and how great you’re doing during this awful, difficult period in your life.

Maybe you’d rather hear someone say how much this sucks, how outrageous and unfair it is.

Maybe you’d rather hear someone tell you that you don’t have to be strong all the time.

Or that it’s definitely okay to curse fate and throw a tantrum or two.

So here I am to tell you all that stuff and more, to let you know where I stand, which is right in your corner.

There’s no right way or wrong way at a time like this. However yo work through this thing is immaterial to me.

All I care about is that you ask for what you need, lean on those who love you and….

Try to trust me when I say that you’ll come out other side.

17 January 2008

Tangan siapa ya? ^^


Lately, i've been asking myself the same question over and over again.

Why it can't be her and why it can't be me?

Why?

But i guess, HE (the one above) knows best.

15 January 2008

SNU

I’ve always told myself time and time again that it is not others that fail us the most but it is our own expectations. And to stop feeling like a victim every time we are faced with disappointments. It’s a really bad habit and most of us do it without even us realizing. Denial is the most widespread plague within our society nowadays. What is to become of us when we can’t even be truthful to ourselves.

Take a look at an apple tree. There might be up to five hundred apples on a tree but did you know that each apple has only ten seeds? [Well I’m assuming that it is a normal, healthy ‘Non Northern Spy’ apple. An apple is capable of producing up to 10 seeds per apple i.e. 2 seeds for each carpel. I just found out about that fact today myself.]

Anyway, try multiplying 500 apples with 10 seeds, HELL!!! That’s way loads of seeds. Now I’m wondering, “Why would you need so many seeds just to grow just a few more apple trees?” That’s like for each apple core I plant, I’m gonna get 10 apple trees. I’m gonna run out of space to plant apple trees at my house.

Well, nature has its own tale to tell us here. You see, not all seeds grow. In life, most seeds never grow. But eventually out of many seeds, some WILL grow. You just don’t know which one. So, if you really want to make something happen, you better try more than once. Coz you’ll never know which attempt will succeed.

You’ll attend twenty interviews just to land you with that one job you want.

You’ll interview forty people to find one good candidate to fill up the vacant post you have.

You’ll talk to fifty people to sell one house, one car, one vacuum cleaner, one insurance policy.

And you might meet a hundred acquaintances just to find that one special friend.

When we understand this “Law of Seed”, we just might be able to avoid from falling into or crawl out of the sinkhole that we bury ourselves in every time we get disappointed. We’ll stop feeling like victims. We won’t get so disappointed to the point being depressed.

Laws of nature are not things to be taken personally. Don’t get bloody uptight about it, it happens to almost everybody. So don’t take offense of it. We just need to understand them - and work with and around them. Learn to deal with things that happens to us.

Successful people fail more often before they succeed. But they plant more seeds everytime they fall to ground. That’s how they rise up again and again until success is theirs. When things are beyond your control, here’s something that you must NOT DO so as to be happy :

You must not decide how you think the world SHOULD be.

You must not make rules for how everyone SHOULD behave.

The moment the word ’should’ comes to your mind, you’re indirectly without realising it, putting an expectation on it. How many times have you tell yourself :

Friends SHOULD return favours.

People SHOULD appreciate you.

Planes SHOULD arrive on time.

Everyone SHOULD be honest.

Your best friend SHOULD remember your birthday.

Many times, such thoughts can bring you spiraling down into more unhappiness and even depression. These expectations may sound reasonable and harmless. But often, all the above mentioned things won’t happen! So you’ll end up being frustrated and disappointed. The irony is that you KNEW that there is a big possibility of it all not happening but YET, you still bet your bottom dollar on the most odd probability. We are such King of Wishful Thinking, aren’t we all?

Well, there’s a better strategy.

Demand less and instead, have preferences.

For things that are beyond your control, tell yourself :

“I would prefer “A”, but if “B” happens, it’s ok too”.

This way, you prefer people to be polite but when they are rude, it doesn’t ruin your day. You prefer sunshine but if it rains, you can still go out of the house too [with an umbrella of course].

To be come happier, we either need to Change The World or Change The Way We Think. And trust me, it is way, way much easier to change our thinking that changing the entire world. I know changing mindsets ain’t exactly easy as A,B,C but the more we try, who knows which attempt is gonna succeed. We didn’t just recite A,B,C with a flick of a finger. God knows how many times our daddies and mummies coaches us with A,B,C before we finally got the hang of it. Even then, some of us still gets it all jumbled up.haha

It is not what happens to you that determine your happiness but rather, how you think about that happens to you!





[Btw, this entry does not by any way imply that I love apples]

14 January 2008

lakaran yang terhasil time dah bosan - photoshop


While we are all aware that life is full of tough decisions that need to be made, we may not realise that hasty decision may not always be the right one.

“Remember that what’s right isn’t always popular and what’s popular isn’t always right”

Everybody makes mistakes. That’s why they put erasers on pencils.

13 January 2008


Sindang -Seoul


Dear Diary,


When one is angry, one retaliates.

When one is disappointed, one keeps quiet.

Death of a friend is sooner or later inevitable. But death of a friendship is sad and tragic. And the latter is hard to deal with.

Miraculous magic of friendship dwells within the heart. And nobody knows how exactly it happened or when did it actually started. But the happiness it brings lifts you up to wonderful places. To have that feeling ripped from you overnight, total devastation.

It’s a game after game. Now that the first game is over, it’s now the ‘See If I Care’ game. Aarrrrgghhhh!!! Ego-testicles can really give men the comfort of supremacy being the alpha male.

Well, you did say time would heal ALL wound. But then, why heal in bitterness when you can heal in peace?

12 January 2008

Seoul National University
thanx ammar for the pic ^^

I’m not going to blow anybody’s mind when I say this, but trust has got to be one of the most basic foundations of a decent relationship. Trust can elevate a good time to a rock solid bond. Let’s face it, no one wants to devote a huge amount of time and energy for someone who can’t be entrusted to do the simplest things. Not that baseless faith is anything to be happy about either. When all trust is gone, we have to ask ourselves, “Is this worthwhile? Can he/she be there for me when the going gets tough?”

07 January 2008

Everland - Dr. Jang


1. Name one person who made you laugh last night.
Lynn

2. What were you doing at 0800?
Dalam bus hafal skrip malhagi *demn*

3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
Pergi pasar beli barang dapur

4. What happened to you in 2007?
Lotsa things which i can't recall any at the moment. (Short term memory loss kinda thing)

5. What was the last thing you said out loud?
No!

6. How many beverages did you have today?
a.Warm Water b.서울 우유

7. What color is your hairbrush?
Black.

8. What was the last thing you paid for?
Bawang besar & bawah putih kat ajumoni pasar..cost me 4000 won (RM 15.40..mak ai~!!)

9. Where were you last night?
Home.

10. What color is your front door?
Cokelat.

11. Where do you keep your change?
Inside the purse lah.

12. What’s the weather like today?
Nice.. xpanas&xsejuk..suam2..winter yg pelik.

3. What’s the best ice-cream flavor?
Baci by Lecka Lecka, the one and only.

15. Do you want to cut your hair?
Perhaps.

16. Are you over the age of 25?
Duh!

17. Do you talk a lot?
Huh?

18. Do you watch the O.C.?
Yes, i did but not anymore. (note the word 'did')

19. Do you know anyone named Steven?
Steven Gerrard..xtau r dia ingat aku lg ke x

20. Do you make up your own words?
erm...pe ek..jap2 aku jawab soalan lain dulu....

21. Are you a jealous person?
Back then. So the answer is NO. (yalah tuuuu)

22. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘A’.
Adila

23. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘K’.
Ket Huat ( haha..housemate tuu..)

24. Who’s the first person on your received call list?
homestay family - Kim Hyeon Jin

25. What does the last text message you received say?
oo..aku nak balik kejap..sempat kot ~ Ammar 67

26. Do you chew on your straw?
Nope.

27. Do you have curly hair?
Which part of the body? :-P (haha..sindrom bulu ketiak weh..)

28. Where’s the next place you’re going to?
Ibul~

29. Who’s the rudest person in your life?
Gosh, i can't think of any. Will get back to this later.

30. What was the last thing you ate?
kimbab.

31. Will you get married in the future?
haha.ape nyer soalan r ni

32. What’s the best movie you’ve seen in the past 2 weeks?
두 얼굴의 여친 (Two Faces of my Girlfriend) does that count?

33. Is there anyone you like right now?
Let me check my list. Oppss, I guess i like me the most.

34. When was the last time you did the dishes?
Today at 7pm.

35. Are you currently depressed?
Is that even a word?

36. Did you cry today?
Nope

37. Why did you answer and post this?
Bosan selepas membuat research pasal "bulu ketiak".

38. Tag 5 people who would do this survey
You. You. You. You. You.

05 January 2008

Nelayan - Pulau Perhentian Besar - 28 Dis 2006

Dear diary,

Why we tend to be too conscious about the outlook we are giving to others? The way we look, the way we talk, the way we walk.


04 January 2008

You're thought about more often than you probably can guess. Now, that it's your birthday, may each and every warm thought, bring a wish for all the best in life, and all your favourite things.
Birthdays are occasions for looking forward to the making of plans, for dreaming dreams, and hoping they will come true, isn't it?

Well, it is just the first day of another 365-day journey around the sun. And all of us are joining in to say, that May the year which your birthday begins, brings all the special things, that mean the most to you!

Enjoy the trip.

p/s : Happy Birthday to Nizam ( oh , aku dipaksa menulis post ni.. )

03 January 2008


It’s a brand new year, 2008. Time flies so fast doesn’t it? The years are passing rather quickly, more so approaching to my big 20. Oh gosh!!

Does it scare me? Naahh…

Does it bother me? Kinda…

Am I gonna get into a fit for it? Doubt it…

The year 2007 have taught me valuable lessons on friendship. The kind of lessons that you tend to forget just because you wanna believe that people will react in manners accordingly to your expectations. The fact is that, they don’t. And you can’t force it out of (or into) them. We shouldn’t be dictating our friends on manners they should be behaving, conforming to the kind that we want or hope for. Everybody is entitled to their own thoughts, opinions and even feelings. You can’t simply tell them, it’s wrong for you to feel a certain emotion or think a certain thought just because it doesn’t match your expectations or conform to your beliefs. As friends, they are still entitled to feel whatever emotions they wanna feel, think whatever thoughts they wanna think of and say whatever words they wanna utter. If they are entitled to it as humans, what gives friendship the right to take that away from them?

But of course, you can beg to differ. You have the right to disagree. As much as they are entitled to many things in friendship, so do you. Should you agree with what he/she says or do, voila! That makes two less unhappy people in the world. And should you disagree with what he/she says or do, then state your case. But you don’t have to do it NASTYLY. Manners my dear, where are your manners? You can still be decent about it can’t you? After all, aren’t we all friends in the first place?

Most times, I see people over-indulge themselves into ‘winning’ that they forget that winning a ‘battle’ doesn’t necessarily brings glory and triumphant. Sometimes losing a ‘battle’ might just win you the whole war. I’ve noticed (myself even) that most of the times, we are too obsessed into trying to make a point right there, right then, to the extent we do not realise that we are jeapordizing something much, much bigger that just an opinion or action.

Friends often abuse their ‘friendship’. Just because you’re friends or close to a friend (or a bunch of friends, as the case may be), that doesn’t give you the right to take them for granted. Yes, you can be more laid back but that doesn’t mean you can be blatantly rude. Respect your friends if you want to be respected in return. Respect is earned and not owed. People are forgetting that there are etiquettes in friendship. These are the basic! It’s the fundamental of what friendship is all about in the first place. If during my early early days of ‘mengaji’, it’s called ‘adab’. I know I’m not piously qualified to preach bout it but I think it would be a good reminder to myself too. There’s ‘adab’ for almost everything we do day in day out. Be it on our own or including interactions with other people. Whether your strangers or acquaintances or friends, etiquettes are there. Might vary from strangers to acquaintances to friends to best buddies, but it’s there.

When you claim you’re pretty up, close and personal being friends with your best buds, you pretty much are already at that level where ‘I am as I am, Accept Me as I am’ is a generally accepted principle(GAP). By virtue of that, you are to know each other pretty well if not very well at this stage. Hence, you should know what are the likings or the dislikes of one another, the sensitive issues, the baggages, the thrilling surprises. Having known all these at the back of your hand and pretty well engraved in the back of your mind, people are still mindful about RESPECTING that aspect of friendship. The general notion nowadays is that just because we are friends, he/she gotta accept it. Just because we are friends, that’s what I am. Just because we are friends, why wanna bother? The ‘just because’s……

02 January 2008

Somewhere


I am no one special. Just a common man with common thoughts. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten. But in one respect I have succeeded as gloriously as anyone who ever lived. I've loved another with all my heart and soul and for me that has always been enough.

-Luke-The Notebook-

Miss you,
Family.