Sometimes the past is something you just can't let go of. And sometimes the past is something we'll do anything to forget. And sometimes we learn something new about the past that changes everything we know about the present.

p/s : I love that you get a little crinkle in your nose when you're looking at me like I'm nuts.

i) Mungkin suatu hari nanti, bila kita bangun dari tidur, perasaan untuk ingin tahu kejadian masing-masing tidak lagi istimewa dan tersimpan dalam sanubari kita. Kita terlalu angkuh pada haluan baru hingga alpa jejak-jejak tua yang telah kita tinggalkan. Saya bimbang dengan itu.

Saya, pada waktu ini amat-amat gementar jika ‘kita’ itu menghilang dan bakal tiada lagi.

ii) Suddenly one's idyllic existence was intruded upon by a luscious memory of someone. silky smooth skin, beautiful eyes, soft sweet lips

Thinner.

Older.

Uglier.

Ingin melihat dunia tanpa memandangnya. Berselisih bahu dengan masa lalu dan ingin tersenyum. Betapa perkara-perkara lama telah membawa ku ke sini. Suka dan duka, itu perkara kedua.

Ingin tenggelam dalam khayalan. Hari ini.

hidup seharusnya dihargai kewujudannya.

hidup, jika mahu difikirkan, secara bawah sedar, adalah keberanian. keberanian yang menyinggah dan ada masa, tersanggah.

p/s: gubahan yang sangat indah. sangat. sangat.

I have no idea where you are out there in the world. But I understand that I lost the right to know these things long ago. No matter how many years go by.....I know one thing to be as true as it ever was. I'll see you soon, then.

I always try to be nice to people.

With you, I’m always nice.

I wonder if you realise the difference.

Gwangalli Beach, Busan 1.42 a.m

i) It is always an interesting eye opener to know how much you are really worth to someone else. You can infer all you want from their everyday (previous) words/actions, but nothing beats the eye opening truth in seeing how you are treated when you are in need, for that is the best time to know whether you are weight in gold or crap.

ii) Percayalah, manusia sememang sifatnya mudah lupa. Things like how we first met is always forgotten.

i) People are not sorry for the things they’ve done. They are just sorry they’ve put themselves in a very guilty position. In short, everything still boils down to they, themselves.

ii) All I care about is that you ask for what you need, lean on those who love you and try to trust me when I say that you’ll come out other side.

i) What happened to us? We were almost there.

ii) Laugh your heart out, dance in the rain, cherish the memories, and ignore the pain...love, learn, and forgive

iii) I think we're both too scared.

i) Semua yang terjadi, menjadi, jadi dan akan jadi dalam hidupku, ada kemungkinan. Tiada masa piantan. Ia datang bila ia datang. Ia hilang bila fikiranku melayang.

ii) Suatu hari, coklat-coklat pahit yang lazat dan menyengat itu, akan membantu atau membunuhku.

iii) Di luar, dunia yang luas dan berkabus. Berjuta juta orang menghuninya, namun tidak sedesis suara yang aku terima. Di dalam, ruang yang tidak sebesar mana. Seorang saja manusia yang ada. Yang aku dengar cuma ketikan papan kekunci yang dipaksa-paksa. Apa pengakhirannya di sini? Yang di luar dan di dalam ku, semuanya sunyi.

Not one life goes by in which the quest for joy and happiness is absent. it is unfortunate, however, that people so often believe that the search will be entirely fulfilled by finding the perfect job, acquiring some new gadget, losing weight, or maintaining an image. The problem inherent in looking outward for sources of happiness is that focusing on what you do not have or what you are not inevitably leads to unhappiness

It is easy to get caught up in your desires and to ignore the sources of joy and growth already present in your life. It is said that the grass is always greener on the other side of the fence. When you have stopped comparing yourself and your assets to others, you will be able to recognize that, to others, you are on the "greener side". Learning to live in te moment and enjoy your personal lot can be a source of profound contentment.

Unhappiness inspired by what you do not have is easy to overcome when you open your eyes to the wonderful things already present in your life. Remember that joy is a state of mind, and it is pointless to sacrifice the happiness of today for a set of possibilities that may or may not come to be.

세상에는..

사람의 마음을 흔드는 감성적인 물질들이 존재한다..

비, 구름, 바다 같은 갓들..

그리고 그 중에는 음악이 있다.

음악을 들다 보면 괜히 마음이 편안해지고 위로 받는 느낌을 받게 된다

For my own consumption. As I need to remind myself over and over and over again,

"I am what I am. When I tend or even tempt myself to act as a different person or having dishonest personality, that is where I fail myself as a human being."

God is great, in every way He creates his creation.

i) For having a friend like you, all i can say is thanks for letting me occupy a little space in your heart. I promise I'll save a room for you to occupy in this heart of mine.

ii) It's good to be scared. It means you still have something to lose. Some days the whole world seems upside down. And then some how, and probably, and when you least expect it, the world rights itself again. Life's roller coaster. Hang tight. Take care

지친 일상에서 그 일상을 아주 잠시라도 쉬어갈 안식처가 있다는 것은

그 사람에겐 커다란 행운일거 같아...

나에겐 너와의 추억으로 인해 소중한 행복이 넘치는 이곳...

그냥 너에게 아주 작은 안식처라도 되었음 좋겠어..

힘들땐 찾아와..우리의 추억만큼 작은 안식처가 되어줄께..

네가 떠나면...항상 익숙치 않은 그리움이 가득할테지만..

God, my parents, cousins, my family, friends, photography, twitter, autumn, sunny skies, breezy days, laughing til it hurts, the feel of the sun on your skin, fiber one bars, ice cream, california rolls, making snow angels, water, piano, slow music, rainbows, old people, babies, hugs, smiles, pixar films, love songs, Onitsuka Tiger's shoe, kittens, long summer days, beaches, pastel color, Nikon, Photoshop, traveling, mom's cooking, potato pizza, colored socks, dad's words of wisdoms, cookies, football, soft tone, inside jokes, stars & space, day dreaming, good books, pocket ball, not getting a joke til 5 minutes later, recycling, getting hyper, creative ideas, nature, bokeh, juice, flowers, depth of field, bubbles, family barbecues, & this may be cliché to say, but ... you : ♥

Kekata yang ringkas dan manis itu, berhantu. Ia bermain-main dalam mindaku. Tidak mahu keluar walau di halau. Malah lebih kurang canggung untuk terus bergantungan dan terngiang-ngiang.

It supposed to be a beautiful morning:

- The rain has washed away the physical misery of the world. No haze, no unsightly grime, only clean air, and mist covered valleys and lush green vista as far as the eyes can see.

- I slept early last night around 3 am. Had a troubled free sleep, no nightmare, and no wayward dreams.

But my heart can't feel the beauty, my eyes stared unseeing and my soul remained silent.

I remember when you lost your head

sometimes I wonder how you stay so sad

when you're so beautiful

I remember every word you said

How you were scared because you'd never been

Somewhere so beautiful